Three Steps to the Right

I made a choice recently, to leave someone I love a great deal. Not because there is something better out there, but because, though I loved him, he made me more unhappy than I have ever been. He acquired a job that he loved, that meant he would be out of town for long periods of time. It meant that I would have to live alone in our house, in what was effectively a different city from where my friends and family lived, for weeks at a time if not more. This is not a relationship worth keeping. I have wondered if I made a mistake, if I should have just sucked it up and dealt with the misery.

I started reading a blog, written by, well not a friend, but someone I know, and she writes of her life, and her husband who travels constantly. She writes of how difficut it is to trust him, how alone and miserable she feels, how she has had to harden her heart and sterngthen her independance to keep misery at bay. I read what she is saying and I can see what my life would have been like if I had stayed. I never want to be as alone as she sounds.