Ever since the demise of my almost marriage, I have found myself deeply fascinated by married couples my age. Luckily for me, it seems as if all my classmates are determined to be married this year, and I am blessed with a huge abundance of people to wonder at. I have spent hours on Facebook, studying photographs and conversations, trying to discern... Well, I'm not exactky sure what it is about these people that interests me so fiercely. I suppose I feel that I can find the answers to my problems in their relationships.
What was it that made them sure that they were ready for marriage? That this person was the right one? How did they know? Every boyfriend I have ever had, (except one) has asked me to marry him, and with most I haven't even considered the option. Even now, though I had said yes, I wasn't a hundred percent sure. I had my doubts, and I knew that many things would have to change before I would wholeheartedly open my mind to marriage. It seems to me, in light of the nuptials taking place in everyone elses lives, that I am the only one who isn't satisfied with what I have.
I am holding out for the impossible? Am I the fool, to want so much from a relationship before i accept that it is ready for marriage? Or are they the fools, for settling for a relationship that may not be perfect? Or are they all universally blessed with the perfect lover and I still haven't found mine?
4 comments:
no, you're not holding out for the impossible. i sincerely believe that when you can't do it, you just can't settle, you're making the right choice. or i'd have joined your list of settlers by now kitten. so hang in there. when we're 85 and cackling gleefully at how much we're making our grandsons squirm by talking of girlie things in their presence, you'll look back and know we were both right. hug.
Thanks Cat.
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nicely done.
Thank you!
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